fragrance of remorse

2011-02-02T07:02:00.001-08:00

Oh hi there. *Blows dust away*

I've been away for too long, haven't I? Things have been a roller coaster ride. Eversince when the O level results have been announced. Let's just say that I actually qualify for polytechnic but it wasn't really satisfactory and I don't really get the courses that I want. In a way, I feel so fucking dissapointed cos the efforts I put in to get what I want did not show the desired results on a single sheet of paper. It's even more worse that the country we're living in is more interested in a single sheet of paper called certificate. I mean, c'mon, where's the passion? Are we supposed to do deskbound work all the time? It'd be so cliche to just study so hard, get a cert and then work in an office, after that get married and have kids. Is that what life means?

Talking about it, I have too much angst inside me that even by expressing it verbally wouldn't even make my frustrations die down. It must have been my physically challenged job or customers' bratty behaviour towards us, the service providers. Honestly, working in a service line has tested my patience enough that eventually one day, one day, i'd actually blow up cos of people's fucked up attitude. But I shall cool down cos for these few months will be a crucial one for me and I need money to provide for myself without relying on my old folks. I've been financially depending on them for 17 years and it makes me feel guilty even more that they will be sponsoring my private education studies if I don't get into the course that I appealed for.

Although I've never been a good servant of God, I hope He makes things alright for me so that I can clearly see what's ahead of me in the future and return my gratitude to my parents.

Till then,
Phat.

2010-07-25T08:11:00.000-07:00

I miss blogging. But I have to stop.. for a while. Whatever it is, I just want to say that I love my girls so the very much. Iono what's wrong with me, but I haven't been spending my time with them (except for E.N.S of course)

And I'm so sorry for that my dearests ):

Anyways, thought I'd share some pictures so that people know that I'm not dead.. yet. LOL.

3 more months T__T. How time flies.

2010-06-15T07:22:00.000-07:00

"Every person has the power to make others happy. Some do it simply by entering a room --others by leaving the room."- William Arthur Ward

2010-05-30T05:19:00.001-07:00

Let's go flea market again, ok Niid? Loves!

Anyway, my life is totally damn screwed up, i mean partly. School's taking most of our holidays away, my f&n coursework is half done and my practical is on Tuesday. Ah, mati. Let's just hope I don't get the kitchen burnt down by fire.

2010-05-12T20:13:00.000-07:00

Sometimes, I wish things would go my way at times. I'm not saying I am always right, but I have your best interests at heart. And the fact that you knew about it yet not doing anything is making me pissed. It's funny that you see yourself being the victim but actually you brought it upon yourself. All I can say is I can always help you, but why should I if you don't want to help yourself?

Just stop living in denial and accept the fact that truth hurts no matter what.

2010-04-28T03:20:00.000-07:00

The Salleh's engagement & wedding were awesome. Now who's next in our family to get married? I surrender white flag already. Too tired. LOL. Anyway, I'll be back after my MYE. Damn.

2010-04-18T07:27:00.000-07:00

Sara Lee Mini Strawberry Cheesecakes

They are madly nice. Imagine the cheese melting in your mouth slowly as you chew and you can taste a tinge of strawberry in it . How could you resist the temptation? And honestly, this photo doesn't do any justice at all. They just taste so damn good ah. Yumzx. And they are just a block away from my house.( You can find them in 7-eleven stores anyway)
Ahhh, it's just undescrible, in other words. It sounds abit exaggerating, but it's really nice. You should try it too.

2010-04-14T05:13:00.001-07:00

My favourite pictures of the month (L)

How glad I am to have these girls by my side.

That includes Naz, Sutri, Nisah, Issha & Anisah. (:

It started to make me realise, it's pointless to have lots of friends but none of them is true to you.

2010-03-20T09:37:00.000-07:00

Oh great or what, my holiday is coming to an end. My homeworks are halfway done and I didn't really study during this holiday. Well, abit.. I mean, there were Chem classes (oh thanks teachers for the pizza treat) and also F&N class, which actually didn't really benefit me (I was fb-ing the whole time) I also had Flag Day which was quite alright to start with, (cos I met this cute boyband from Indonesia.Hi Mas!) yet turned out to be a little shitty at the end of the day. I'd rather not talk about it actually. :/

Standard, must take picture with this Miss Indian one.

Anyway, i met my girls too (Khaty & Eeqa) and it was super duper awesome. From Mcds to Supreme Court(a photoshoot for Eeqa's artwork), then to Orchard Ion and I couldn't remember where we went last. Great company and laughter, I wish it didnt end so soon actually. But still thanks for everything, girls.^^ And a day after that, I caught a cold and had a sore on my right eye. How great is that.

My favourite shot.

My favourite shot too!

My bestfriend.

And I'm actually wondering where is the shot of the 3 of us? Hope you girls send me soon okay. Most probably, it'll be in FB, so yeah check it out there.

Phat.

2010-03-13T08:07:00.000-08:00

Thank you bebo for making my Saturday a beautiful one.

ROCK YOU LIKE A HURRICANE. \m/

Sidetrack abit, my holiday isn't really a holiday, if you get what I mean.

Monday- Chem Class.

Tuesday- Practicing for my Practical Exam. ( fuck man, I have 5 dishes to cook. Watcha say bout that?)

Wednesday- Flag Day.

Hopefully, I can squeeze some time for N & Z. It's been a long time since the three of us hang out. The last was on Chinese New Year's Eve. Not forgetting, KHATY. It's been ages since we last met. Perhaps, around december or so? Yes, that bad. And also, Faiz, Jiib and Yan. Amaciam gengz? Oh how time flies so easily. I hope I can spend some quality time with them. A little catch-up, gossip and heart-to-heart talk would do. Ahh whatever, I still have some things to do. ): Anyways, happy holidays! (:

2010-03-05T08:02:00.000-08:00

I really can't wait for my hols. I swear upon my head, I really can't. Well, it's pointless anyway because I still have to come to school. Sigh.

I just want to spend my time catching up with these people.

Excluding Eeqa,Sutri & Zul. Hahaha, everyday see their faces already. If you guys read this, lek ah. Joke.

Anyways, how have you guys been lately? I know I have no people reading my entries so yeah, it's quite pointless to ask actually. The previous week has been occupied with cramming up formulas and notes in my brain. This week is quite okay to start with except that Vectors is making me pissed. Fuck vectors,seriously. Who likes vectors, anyway? LOL. Anyway, I'm free this weekend. I thought of going with the bestfriend but I doubt she's going to be free. Sigh. We need a major catch-up/gossip session. Big time. LOL.

2010-02-11T21:00:00.000-08:00

I'm tired, exhausted and all drained out. But nevertheless, I'm still excited for JB this weekend to meet my cousins there. (!!)

Enjoy your holidays everyone. :D

2010-02-01T06:01:00.000-08:00

Happy Bday to Ng Sokkan!

17 year old already! Can get married ald.

Although we may not be close like we used to, I've never regretted having you as a good friend.

You must do well for your O' levels. And please stop being so racist please,you chinese. LOL.

I'm sorry for not celebrating your bday with you today. I'll get your present soon.

I love you Sokkie. ^^

2010-01-14T03:22:00.000-08:00

My blog is going to rust very soon. I should do something about it.. NOT. You think I have all the time in the world isit?! Basically, there's nothing happening lately except for last friday when Issha and Eeqa treated me to Breeks for my very belated birthday present. LOL. Love it and love you guys.

School is definitely okay(?) Only lifeless abit? But it's okay ah, atleast I have good company around me. And I just came back from Mustaffa Centre with Nazimah. We bought stuffs for our class decos. Ah cb, somebody just cut my legs pls. We were like walking around the whole area of 4th floor. Definitely tiresome.

Everyone knows I have not had a good sleep lately, so obviously I have to take my afternoon nap. So while we were going back home around 6 plus, I actually fell asleep in the bus and slept on a stranger's shoulder. When I was hearing some giggles infront of me, only did I realise that I was actually lying down on her shoulder. Sorry ah Aunty, too tired ah me. She even asked me to sleep on her shoulder if I was too tired. This aunty damn nice prease. The next time I bump into you, I want to sleep on your shoulders again ah aunty!

A stupid history test tomorrow. Ah cb.

2009-12-31T05:34:00.000-08:00

2009 was shit. I've seen people betraying their own friends, I've seen people changing for the better or worst, eitherway. I've seen many things unexpectedly. I've lost people whom I love, I've lost many friends. I've lost my own identity. But it was definitely an eye-opener to see how much people can change. My only resolution for 2010 is to do well for my O's. Yes, that is my only one resolution.

Anyways, it's nearing to 10pm and I'm waiting for Nisah to finish her work. Then we'll celebrate our new year with Zahir outside. Can't wait for Countdown to 2010 with my very favourite people in my life. <3

2009-12-19T07:18:00.000-08:00

I MADE IT. I FUCKING MADE IT. I REALLY MADE IT.

I thought I couldn't. Seriously, I thought i was going to get 19 points. Omg. 11 points baby. Congrats to Tara,Herina,Shani,Ruzanna,Eiyja,Riduan and Jinxiang and whoever I missed out. Thanks for those who called me, texted me early in the morning while I was sleeping (yes Jib&Nisah, i'm talking about both of you) and yeah, everyone who wished me luck. Love you guys.

E.N.S made it too! Weees!

And to these guys, I'll see you guys in school (or sooner I hope). Thanks for the wishes. (:

And great, I am having a flu just when I was about to celebrate. Me can't wait for Monday. :D

2009-12-11T10:32:00.002-08:00

I have been missing for quite a long time, I guess. I'm so so sorrrry. It's either I'm busy youtube-ing or babysitting my niece. That's my job currently. Hehe. But I'm not dead yet, so don't panic people. It's quite a no life to do that actually, but I'm liking it although having to entertain my niece is not an easy task. Seriously. But it's okay. So once again people, don't panic. LOLZ. I'm not really active in MSN or FB anymore, so if there's anything you want to talk about, I am just a call away.

Loves,

Phat.

2009-10-30T03:28:00.000-07:00

My blog is so deadxzs. I'm so sorry alright. I'm too busy with nothing, and therefore there's nothing to post. I need a job badly actually. I just sent 2 resumes to some places. I hope there'll be good news. Anyway,sidetrack abit, I just met my P.E.N.S yesterday. Actually, one of us just had a heartbreak so I decided to be a sweetheart by suprising her with Fruit & Cheese tartlets at the door with the other 2 girls. So taaa-daa. Sweet tak kita? Sounds so wtf. So we ended up taking videos under the block, disturbing foreign workers and kids. I'm not gonna post the videos here, obviously. So we left almost close to 7 because I had a movie to catch with Mira at 7.30pm. So can you all imagine me rushing to the interchange with my body all sweaty.

Anyway, My Sister's Keeper was good. Worth your money and tears! You all should watch it ok! So I'll let the pictures flow alright. I'm meeting my cousin for dinner after this. Me can't waitah.

2009-10-15T02:40:00.000-07:00

ME LOVE 4B CHALET VERY MUCH!

There are alot of stories to share, but my blogger is acting up again.
There are alot of things to do this weekend and me is so excited.
There are alot of people whom I want to meet, so please P.E.N.I.S,Nueeshaphatkhatlicious, Mira (you again!), Ateek, Su, come up with some ideas for our gathering.

Anyway, you can check out my chalet pictures in my fb in these few days. I'm too lazy to post it in Blogger.

I am the most happiest kid alive. No, I am the most happiest 16 year old teen alive. :D

2009-09-30T08:17:00.001-07:00

Can someone please drill my head. My N papers are coming in less than a week and I'm still here,slacking, like nobody's business. C'mon phat, you better buck up i tell you.

2009-09-24T10:24:00.000-07:00

Enjoy the videos made by P.E.N after Graduation and check out the pictures in my FB peeeepoooll!

2009-09-19T08:28:00.000-07:00

Happy Hari Raya to all of you out there. I'm damn busy, I'm always busy anyway. I can predict that Raya this year won't be as fun and energetic as last year. Whatever it is, forgive me for all my wrongdoings and enjoy your raya! Must collect alot this year ok.

Enjoy a video we (P.E.N.S) made a week ago in preparation for our Hari Raya. I don't know why lah, I find it abit so-so compared to last year's. But still, just enjoy the video ok!

2009-09-14T05:40:00.000-07:00

I've been wanting to ask you this.

Do you think our friendship is still there?

Because all this while, all I could notice is we're drifting apart.

And the more we try to put things together back, the further we get.

2009-09-08T05:21:00.000-07:00

I'll just reply my tags here. So sorry, people. I've been busy with N's lately. And please please please, don't ask me about it. I'd rather not talk about it.

Phat-Jeanette : WHAT NOOB? CHIO BU IS NICER.

Phat-Mira : Me miss you toooo babe.
Phat-Khaty: Lol, hopefully i can celebrate tchrs' day next year ah. Thanks babe! (:
Phat-Niid: Wokaays! Will do soon (=
Phat-Welly: Thank you my dear! HAHA, did i call you dear?
Phat-Hazimah: Okays! Will do soon (=

Any to the ways, it's Nazimah Shaik's bday tomorrrow. 09.09.09. I know her birthdate is cool. Can use for 4d, right? Ok,that's so out of point. So yes, to my dearest Naz, thank you for being there for me no matter what. Thank you for putting a smile on my face everyday. Thank you for coming up with your lame jokes just to make me laugh everyday. Thank you for everything. We've been through alot this year and I hope in many years to come, we'll still be sisters ketat ( ketat dok) ok. I know things have been hard on you lately,babygirl but I know you are a strong person. That's why I love you. You are a V.I.P ok! Victory Indian Power!

Nerd

HANYUT!

P.s; No more taking pictures during Chem class hor!

2009-08-17T09:24:00.001-07:00

Sorry that I gotta go.. ):

2009-08-15T12:08:00.000-07:00

I couldn't stop laughing up till now. I was studying at the void deck, and Farhan ,who happened to be Nisah's cousin, joined me. We talked about stuffs till midnight.

And few minutes ago, I was surfing the net. My bro and Kavin just came back from somewhere. The moment my bro stepped in the room,

Bro: WHAT WERE YOU DOING WITH YOUR GUY FRIEND UNDER YOUR BLOCK AND WHO IS HE?!

Me: With Farhan, Nisah's cousin? Do what? Just talk ah. How you know?

Bro pointed to Kavin.
Bro: Kavin told me. He saw you with that guy, so he told me to check you out. (Nb Vin, damn batu api)

Kavin: No ah sia. I just told him you were with your guy friend.. And your bro was like "WHAT. WHICH GUY, AKU NK TENGOK DIA AH SIA."

Bro: Hahaha, this Kavin cocok ah. "Eh she with a guy ah sia!"

Me: Wahliao, you all so stalker-ish. Stalk me. Lagi lagi you Kavin, damn kepo ah you.

And so, throughout my conversation with Farhan, apparently my bro stood there with his friends monitoring(!) me from far, which is actually a block away lah. Wahliao. But I kinda feel touched that he actually bothered to do that. Only that sometimes he needs to loosen up abit and accept the fact that his baby sister is turning 16 this year, not a 6 year old kid.

2009-08-05T04:13:00.000-07:00

Jangan merepek ah blogger! I've already used Mozilla Firefox and also edit the Compose Mode, still no post-formatting buttons pun!

Any to the way, I'm beeeezy. And I gtg!

2009-07-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

I woke up around 6 plus in the morning and realised the time was almost close to 7. I thought of skipping school because I knew I was going to be late no matter what. But my mother had to actually spoil my morning, by forcing me to go to school, which I threw another bitchfit at her. I was totally rushing for time like hell. And so, by the time I reached school, it was already 7.45 am. Siggghhhhh. Mr Wallace was supposed to call my mom, but I actually gave him the wrong number ah, because I already argued with my mom early in the morning and I didn't wish to talk to her. Mengirap sia.

Anywaaaysss, I really had enough of Blogger loh. Wtf, I can't even upload pichas. I just wanted to post about my working weekends. Argh,damn ah! I don't like Mondays, I've never liked Mondays and I will never like Mondays.

2009-07-25T08:02:00.000-07:00

My bro used to remind me that this would happen to me one day, and he's right.

I may pretend that I don't know a single shit but I know what has been going on lately. I also know, at one point of time, when my tolerance level is totally low, I may actually blow up infront of your faces.

You people don't understand the word 'friend', so I suggest all of you to actually look for that meaning in the dictionary, or if you still don't get, might as well you shove it up your ass.

2009-07-19T08:51:00.000-07:00

When we were 13 and just stepped into Springfield, we couldn't stand the sight of each other but we got along eventually.

When we were 14, we were there for each other no matter rain or shine, and we were like twin sisters.

When we were 15, we listened to each other's problems, we went out for photography outings and we had fun together.

And now that you're turning 16, what do you think I can put here?

No matter what, be it rain or shine, flood or drought [mesti dramatic sikit], I'm here for you, and you know I'm just a call away.

Happy Birthday, Eeqa. You know how much I love you and yes everyone does. I always hope you can find someone who loves you more than you love him, and also you can go into your dream school and get your dream job. XOXO.

I know it's 12.10 am now and I also know by this time, people would be flooding you with text messages. But it's too bad, I actually wrote this a month ago. Hahaha, ok I am mean. Lol.

2009-07-10T05:03:00.000-07:00

I'm back. I missed out many things actually, partly because I've been busy like a bumble bee lately. Any to the ways, I went to Nazimah's brother's wedding. And it was fun that we actually stayed there till night. And my bestfriend Naz, was totally havoc, you know. Lol. Dance like there's no tomorrow. Hahaha!

2009-07-08T00:58:00.002-07:00

I broke down for quite a time watching MJ's memorial. ):

2009-06-29T06:24:00.000-07:00

School has been good, afterall. I was looking forward for a bad day earlier in the morning because I haven't even finished my homeworks excluding English, so it might be possible for the teachers to get angry. But they didn't. Our school is so busy with H1N1 procedure like taking temperatures and signing forms. And someone please tell me to lose weight, I actually gained 5 kg(!) I was like what. I need to cut down on Mcdelivery please. But it's alright, I don't think I am obsessed with my weight anymore just like I did few years back. Finally, I am so glad that I had a heart-to-heart talk with Nazimah! ^^

Okaaaays, toodles.

2009-06-24T09:48:00.000-07:00

Karaoke with the Girls! :D

It was supposed to be P.E.N.S outing but N couldn't make it. So we had to go without her. ): I really miss N because I haven't met her for about a month or so. (?) Okay sidetracking. We went karaoke at Kampung Chai Chee and sang our hearts out.

I surrendered white flag on the last few songs. I was too tired to sing lah, of course. Hehehe! Love you girlsssss! :D

2009-06-19T04:24:00.000-07:00

First and foremost, let me make this clear to you that this post has nothing got to do with my friends. And secondly, I am not a lesbian or whatsoever. This is just based on what I think of my own gender and my observation.

Things I don't like about my own gender:

-Girls who brag about their relationship.

Well at times, girls like to show off, sometimes I also like to show off, but please limit it. I don't like it when they write "omg, my baby is so suwiit i know.." or "sweeeet kan kita? dont be jealous haters" and yadayadayada.

I know you wanna brag about how purrrfect your relationship is,but like I said, just now, know your limits. People read also, people meluat, you know. Meluat means errr, disgusted and sick of hearing it.

-Passerby(s)/Bloghopper/Hey/.

Hahaha, this is going to be what the heck, since I recently got one who commented on my friend's clothing. I understand abit cos I used to be a passerby too. And at times, when we come across wtf blogs, we just have this urge of giving them a tag, hiding our identity.Like as if, our fingers are itching to type it out.

But seriously woman, if there's nothing good about your comment, just don't bother typing it out. Why do you care about people's clothing,behaviour, attitude? Obviously, different people grow up in different background, so you can't expect them to live up to your expectations. And it's not the first time you see people wear something like that right, so why bother? You the mother isit?!

-Girls who pretend that their English power gedabak/ who thinks that they are good in English.

First, I am not good in English and I sometimes write bahasa pasar in my blog like (lor,lah, cb) I remember going to this particular blog, and her English was like hmmm. She used bombastic words, and I was like hmmmm. Again (!)

No use using bombastic words when actually your grammar is totally wrong and the sentence structure is totally like crap. I know these girls actually pick the words from Thesaurus.com ah. (I know that trick girls) So, being weak at english, I checked out the words at dictionary.com. And I was like whaattt, these words dont match the sentence sia. And at times, if I really don't know, I'd ask my cousin who is apparently a teacher to explain it to me. Hahaha, I'm not bragging hor.

It's nothing wrong improving your vocabulary usage, but when you use it at the wrong time, or, on the wrong sentence, it sounds crazy, trust me. If you want to impress people just by using these words, no use also. Might as well, you use that during composition and impress the marker right.

I'm so happy that I actually let it out. I'm so bored and yes, I'm going to shower and off to my aunt's houseeee! :D

2009-06-15T11:28:00.000-07:00

I'm actually waiting for my darling Eeqa to give me the pictures on Sat, but I hardly see her online. It's alright then. Eeqa, send me the pics before you go for your hols bebo!

First,on Friday, it was with Khaty and the rest[ I damn lazy to type, hehe] to town, second,on Saturday, was with Eeqa and Pahan to town again. And the day,on Thursday, before I went out with Khaty & the rest, I went to town(!) to give my book to my cousin. So iyessss, I went to town for three consecutive days last week. Nasib baik aku tak dapat face MRT Driver, kalau hari hari dia tengok muka aku, confirm jelak.

And so, on Friday, we went for bowling at Marina Square. Ofcourse, I am not that pro in bowling so I scored the lowest, obviously. But it was fun still, because I enjoyed laughing at people.

If you can see, Khaty's hand was on my head. I don't know why, but I like it when people put their hands or pat gently on my head. Like my bro and his goodfriend, Fazly, whom I am close with, whenever they leave the house, they'd always lightly stroke my head and tell me to take care and study hard. It gives me the sense of comfort and I can feel their concern for me. Hahaha, I am very weird indeed.

We went to Esplanade after bowling to take pictures, just like we did, 2 years back. Sigh, good ol' times. I was skinny like fuck that time and now I'm like 10 kg heavier (?). It's alright still, I don't care about my weight anymore.

I'm really glad that I finally enjoyed with my friends after my depressing mid-year exams. It has been quite a time since I last enjoyed. I still wanna go for a picnic with PENS, soooon! :D

2009-06-15T11:07:00.000-07:00

My dad's bestfriend checked my facebook, my mom's bestfriend's daughter checked my facebook, my dad checked my facebook. My social life is like ruined, k not totally. There's nothing to be afraid of, actually, because I don't have a boyfriend of ourse and I don't take sexy horny pictures right. It's just that I don't feel good when i have older people checking on my social life.

My dad's bestfriend told me when he bumped into me "Waahhh, gambar kau bukan main lagi dalam facebook"

WTF WTF WTF.

2009-06-12T08:50:00.000-07:00

I was bloghopping my old friends' blogs and I cried a little. I totally miss Mira,Raf,Suhana,Atiq and not forgetting ,the most, Fifi (aka Shaz, hahaha tukar nama).

Hm, so I hope for Fifi's return this december and I'm planning something for us girls, that includes you Sut. Perhaps a bbq pit or a chalet. Only now, I need their msn(s) to tell them and plan together. So if any of you girls read my blog or post, please please please tag me.

2009-06-10T21:52:00.000-07:00

( I REALISED I HAVE DARK BROWN EYES. HEHE! CLICK ON THE PICTURE!)

A day ago,I checked my money in my wallet and it was left with $1.90. I then started to whine and whine and whine like a bitch because I had no money left to go out. I think my mom heard me talking to myself in the hall while checking my wallet. After whining and feeling all so moody, I put myself to sleep. When I woke up from my sleep, I thought of putting some coins I took from my piggy bank, but i was rather overwhelmed. I saw 5 $ 1o notes ($50) in my wallet(!!). I knew it was my mom's doing because my dad is rather stingy this month. Haha.

I wanted to cry, but I held my tears back because I was moved by the fact that my mom actually voluntarily gave me $50. I'm so touched till now.

I know it's abit potong steam because Father's day is coming and then suddenly I talked about my mother. But I love my dad and my mom equally.

So yes, me very happy because got money now! Hahaha, can go out! :D

2009-06-08T08:18:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday Isssssha! You know I love you!

Not forgetting, Mira! Happy 16th. Miss you alot nyonya sayur. Bila nak video lagi? (=

Reminder: F&N CLASSES ON THURS AND FRI! :D

2009-06-05T08:30:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday, Bro! Love you lotsa no matter how irritating,selfish and overprotective brother you can be!

2009-06-04T08:53:00.000-07:00

(1) besides lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
Forehead!
(2) how do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Damn tired lor!
(3) who was the last person you took photo with?
With Nisahhh in Gelare! :D
(4) would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
Not at all.
(5) would you ever donate blood?
Hahaha, I'll think about it.
(6) have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?
Of course!
(7) do you want someone dead?
No, not at all!
(8) what does the last message says?
Okay. -.-
(9) what are you thinking right now?
My brother's bday!
(10) do you wish someone with you right now?
Errr, nope?
(11) what time you went to bed last night?
4 am! I know so freaking late.
(12) where did you buy the t-shirt that you're wearing right now?
From Schooool! Sarawak Shirt. Misss Sarawak mannn. ):
(13) is someone in your mind?
Err, I'm currently so blank.
(14) who was the last person who text you?
Sutri the susu! :D
(15)10 people tagged to do this quizI will type down people who ask me to do or done already :D& Some who has not done yet.
Eeqa
Sutri
Nisah
Issha
Jeanette
Khaty
Faiz
Pahan
Clara
Shaz
(16) who is 2 having relationship with?
(Sutri)An! :D
(17) is 3 male or female?
(Nisah) A shemale! Hahaah, a female lah!
(18) if 7 & 6 get together, would it be a good thing?
(Faiz & Khaty)They are cousins sia! HAHAHA!
(19) what is 1 studying about?
(Eeqa)English, Maths, Chem & Phy, Hist & SS,Art, O Malay :D
(20) when was the last time you had chat with 5?
(Jeanette) HAHAHA! in facebook weeks ago!
(21) is 4 single?
( Issha)Nope!
(22) say something about 2?
(Sutri) She's my besttttt friend since we were 3 years old and I love her although she can be lame sometimes!
(23) what do you think of 3 & 6 being together?
(Nisah & Khaty)NoNoNo, that'd make them lesbians!
(24) what will you do if 6 & 7 fight?
(Khaty & Faiz)It will never happen lah since they're cousins! :)
(25) do you like 3?
(Nisah)I looooove her! :D

2009-06-02T07:33:00.000-07:00

I am broke with only 5 cents left in my wallet, I don't remember all of my classes I have to attend during June Hols.

I might as well forget that I have a mouth to eat, a pair of ears to hear,a pair of legs to walk and a vagina.

Can life get any worser than this?

2009-05-29T05:55:00.000-07:00

Finally, T2 is over. T1 was like shit with all these friendships problems but atleast T2 is better. I already know how to handle with irritating people and all of you must learn from me. I did okay for my Mid-Year, and goodness I was on the verge of breaking down when I was sitting down with Ernie & Jeanette to get our prizes. Cb, I've always hated to be on the stage. To add on to my misery, I actually have many classes to attend during the holidays, so I won't be enjoying my holidays much. Sad thing, huh?

I really hope to do well for my Malay O'level! Yes, on Monday alright! 2 more days to my first national exam paper! Not funnny huh, I'm extremely nervous like what. I still need to work on my Frasa Berbunga and my Peribahasa. Urgh shit ah.

But still, despite all these, I'm still looking forward for my holidays because of them.

P.E.N.S

Nueeshaphatkhatlicious. Nurrrra, I miss you alotttt! :D

Nisaaahhhh! Hahaha, where have you beeeeen sia?! ):

I miss you, you know. Let's do slumber party again at my house, this time.

2009-05-27T03:43:00.000-07:00

I was sorting out my pictures in my folder and I saw this.

Sigh, I miss 2a alot.

2009-05-24T08:05:00.000-07:00

My computer is acting like a bitch. B I T C H. I can't even read my tagboard and also view my friends' blog. _I_ (!!!!)

2009-05-21T06:10:00.000-07:00

Class Photo-Taking! :D

I (L) those who made my Tuesday a better day.

And I miss Nazimah. It would have been more fun if she were to join us (!)

2009-05-18T05:48:00.000-07:00

I failed my Physics & Chem. Damn them. Should have studied properly.

I failed my F&N paper because there was a printed page on page 6 and i thought it was supposed to be blank. That means I lost 6 marks. I could have passed my paper. I just need one stupid mark to pass. Nb.

I did the same for Maths too. I thought the last printed page was page 16, but it actually turned to be page 17. I lost 5 marks for nothing. Especially when the question was too chicken and my favourite question of all! But still, I passed my papers, but it wasn't as satisfying.

I studied the wrong topic for S.E.Q for Hist. And I lost 13 marks because I didn't know what to answer.

In conclusion:

I should check thoroughly for my papers. Seriously Phat, last warning.
I should do more revision for my Combined Science.
I should stop taking pictures during Chem lessons.
I should stop sleeping during Physics' class.
I SHOULD REALLY BUCK UP LAH CB. HOW TO GO SEC 5 LIKE THAT?!

[Looks like I'm gonna treat Jeanette to Pizza Hut. ]

2009-05-15T20:52:00.000-07:00

I've been thinking about this lately. Of all the things we've been through, I realised it was useless for me to hang on because you are you now. You can't be the one whom I expected you to be. I wish we could turn back the hands of time. I wish we could, because the memories were so fond back then. It wasn't your fault, I was too hard on myself. I kept pinning high hopes on you, I kept reminding myself of you. I know you don't want that because that would hurt me even more.

I told myself to stop thinking of you, I told myself to start avoiding you, but I couldn't. I was too dependent on you, so are you. I did try to avoid you, in every way I could, but I realised, in the end, I keep running back to you.

This is the biggest challenge for me- having to forget you. But I'll try. I'll never give up, because I am the strongest girl you've ever met, just like what you've mentioned to me last time.

Let's sing Sway by the Perishers again, with me.

-Edit/-

Urgh, I'm hating Saturdays even more. I hate weddings, I hate aunties especially those who don't act like their own age. Urgh, easily said, I hate everything about weddings. I hate this morning too. I only managed to sleep for 2 pathetic hours. Yes, from 3 am till 5am. The bellring woke me up, it was my brother. That one is another one. And I had 2 weird dreams. Hate weird dreams as well.

Alright, going for a night jog alone. Goodnight.

2009-05-15T07:47:00.000-07:00

BEFORE:

Okay not that bad huhhh. Abit flat right my faceee.

Now:

WHAT IN THE BLUE HELL HAS HAPPENED TO MY CHEEKS MAN?!!!

2009-05-14T07:40:00.000-07:00

I am not a big fan of cats actually. If you guy know this, my brother wants to adopt a kitten. But I insisted on persian cats. The fat fluffy cat with flat face and a lazy attitude, just like the soon-to-be owner. I even decided on his/her name. If that fat cat is a male, I will name him Mario Kemek. If that fat cat is a female, I will name her Maria Kemek. Let's just hope my parents allow both of us to adopt one.

HAHAHAA, CUTE RIGHT?!

2009-05-12T03:03:00.000-07:00

I lied to my mother's friend saying that mama wasn't at home and cannot be contacted outside. And that poor lady sounded sad. But not my fault what, she didn't want to tell her identity. Aunty, my mother got many friends you know. If you just say her friend, yeah lah, what friend? School friend? Casual friend? Bestfriend? Must tell me ok. Then I allow you to talk to her.

Where was my mother that time? Sleeping soundly like an old baby in her room.

I am very mean.

2009-05-08T06:29:00.000-07:00

So much for my hiatus.

I came here to share my experience with you. My tremendously heartbreaking experience.

#1: While doing my Maths Paper, I could work out all the problems except for some angle problems. So it was left with 15 mins for the paper, I was quite confident that the last page was page 16. But actually it was 17 pages, and I missed the freaking last question worth 4 marks. 4 MARKS, I TELL YOU. And the suar-est part was, the question was actually draw a stem and leaf diagram. The easiest thing to do worth 4 marks! You only need to organise the numbers worth 4 marks!

# 2: Mr Danial told us that Stalin's topic was going to come out for S.E.Q. So I studied that, knowing that, that topic wasn't that hard, not like what ah T.O.V or whatever shit. So I studied quite hard for it, and the next day,I wanted to cry because it didn't come out in the papers! What the fuck. Mr Danial ah, MEREPEK! Hahaha, I hope he won't read this. Cher, I just kidding one. I am the merepek one, not you.

In conclusion : MID YEAR SUCKS. MY MID YEAR SERIOUSLY SUCKS.

I want to go on a holiday already!! Don't want come back on Tuesday!!

Hiatus again (!)

2009-05-06T23:32:00.000-07:00

< /a> < /a>

Happy Bday Bro! Love you no matter how selfish, irritating, overprotective you can be.

2009-05-05T05:37:00.000-07:00

H-I-A-T-U-S

2009-04-28T08:53:00.000-07:00

We were given a task to enhance our confidence and exposition skills. We were tigers and we had to convince the Ark creater on why we deserved to be on the Ark.

Q&A/Debate with other species.

2009-04-27T05:36:00.001-07:00

The reason why I always look forward for Chemistry lessons on Tues & Thurs.

I (L) CHEMISTRY

(except for Miss Tay. Haha)

2009-04-25T06:03:00.000-07:00

All you can see around you is just a bunch of hypocrites and two-faced people.

-Edit/-

PHATT says:
each time i feel like giving up, i'd think of those whom I believe would never trade our friendship for anything on this world and be there for me, which is you and nisah.

-------- says:
so sweet of u to say dat man p
haha

Now that I said that, be nice to me! Hahahaha! And Z, you still owe me a Swensens treat lor! Hmph.

2009-04-24T03:47:00.000-07:00

Phat: Eh naz, kau nanti jangan pandang belakang tauuu. Mana lah tau.

Naz: Kau pergi sana, jangan kacau aku. Kau pergi jauh jauh main Congkak.

Phat: Alaaa Naz..

Naz: Kau jangan tegur aku!

Hahaha,you all get the joke tak?! I watched Jangan Tegur with my cousins and aunt. Yes, a midnight movie. I was screaming like a mad woman in the cinema because the sound effects really sent a chill down my spine. Apart from that, I think Nadia Mustafar really acted well for the ghost scenes. But surprisingly, the supposedly-to-be-heroine, I can't remember her name, she was quite stiff in her acting and she lacked of expressiveness, so it was hard to convince the audience that she was disturbed. But overall, it was alright, not that bad except for the last scene of the movie.

There was this part when the heroine got posessed and she looked like Nightcrawler from X-men. -.- Serious, I am not joking one, I am fucking serious. So instead of getting scared of the posessed body, I actually laughed like a pig because she reminded me of nightcrawler. Wait, I show you ah.

Yes, exactly like that. But I think she looks more like Mystique from X-men too. But still, Mystique and Nightcrawler are the same- mother and son. Okay sorry, no X-Men. Hehehe.

So the show ended around 1am plusplusplus. We wanted to go for supper, but it was already late and I was yawning and yawning and yawning, yes I didn't get a good afternoon sleep on that day.

Now I'm rotting at home when the weather is just fine to go out. ):

2009-04-22T04:43:00.000-07:00

Tagboard replies.

eeqa: eh, burger kau sedap. nak lagi.
phat: thank you eeqa! :D

SUT: wheeyyy! never update alrd? i slap your pao face/chicks then you knw! ahaha
Phat: HAHAHAAH! I lazy ah to update. My usb spoilt. It's cheeks lah you, anyhow. Stop anyhow slapping my cheeks. It's beyond adorable pweaseee. hehe.

jeanetteeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee: LOL ! ASS ! faster faint lor you.. i'll make sure you'll faint once you see my blog ^^ wahahahaha.
Phat: Hahahah wah you so happy to see me faint ah. nevermind, you waiiiittt.

khaty: *looks down* phatt buat burger? keke. NAK!
:sut makes me hungry. i want to eat 'pao' now. *craving*
:im scared of losing my brothers too. oh my. i wonder what actually happen. haiz. -_-
Phat: Wah babe, lu peh tag maut. Sekali 4. Hahah, if i got time, I cook for you k. And stop thinking of my pau cheeks! And yes, we are all scared to lose our family members, but sadly, everybody has to die ,right? ):

hanisah: It's okay man . Haha , still sad abit lah , but yeah , you're right . Bahaha ! But then , far from eye , near to heart kan . HAHA -.-
Phat: HAHAHA. yes, it's alright. Who knows he might ask for your ehem this week? (=

Haziqah: I was bloghopping and i found your blog. May i ask which blog did you when to a girl with the url, rwckvirgin?
Phat: Err yeah, sorry. Hope you dont mind actually.. :S

2009-04-20T07:57:00.001-07:00

I read someone's blog. And I heard about her brother. I may not know what exactly happened to him, but I know he was so young to leave the world. While I was reading her post, I actually shed a tear. That shows how scared I am to lose my brother.

2009-04-10T04:51:00.001-07:00

On a hiatus mode.

Will be back or never.

2009-04-08T01:58:00.000-07:00

Knowing that you actually kept our photo taken together beside your bed makes me cry even more.

I could not help feeling guilty for not spending your last moment together with me.
If only I knew you were going to leave the world anytime soon.

Where do I go w/o you? Mom is bitter too. I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I wish I could..

I'll miss your Assam Pedas, Rendang,Ayam Kicap and mostly, I'll miss sleeping on your lap.

I am so sorry Nek, I miss you terribly.

-Edit/-
I am feeling much better, after Hanisah and few of my friends comforted me. You guys are right, God loves her more. By mourning her death won't do any good. She won't be coming back, neither does she will be happy to see us continue our life in despair. Thank you loves. After the funeral, the whole family headed home with the glum look on their faces.

Nisah then asked me out to buy her necessities e.g shaving cream, lip moisturiser and few etc. Hehehe, she's so cute. I also got myself Darlie Whitening Toothpaste. My teeth is beginning to stain like a smoker, and me don't like it. Nisah treated me Strawberry Milk Tea, and we continued our mini shopping and went home.

Oh yes, fcuk yes, I'm having Malay Oral tomorrow. I have no mood to talk to anyone, except Hanisah lah, but seriously I don't really have the mood to voice out my feelings. Urgh, I hate it.

2009-04-07T06:30:00.000-07:00

As I was cycling around the neighbourhood, Mom called me and informed me something shocking. Someone who took the place of my late Grandma, who used to cook me delicious food when I visited her, who would let me sleep me on her lap while watching the TV, who would call our house everytime, who would always kiss and hug me each time, passed away. That is my Grandma's sister- Nek Jarah.

Mom sobbed silently. When I reached home, there was silence in the house.

I love you, Nek. I'm sorry for not visiting you when you were sick and lying hopelessly on bed. I'm sorry for not picking up your calls sometimes. I'm sorry for everything. Finally, your wish to meet Nenek is fulfilled. God loves you more.

Ill be missing you - P.diddy & Faith Evans

2009-04-05T07:05:00.000-07:00

I have this habit of waking up early in the morning already and I hate it alot. No more beauty sleep. All thanks to my tuition and school. Any to the way, I had an awesome weekend lor! But still, I am pessimistic about next week because I have to hand in my F&N Coursework ald for my N level. I am so not ready for it. Firstly, my research is halfway done. Second, I havent analyse my diet. Lucky, I'm done with my planning. Okay lah, I don't want to talk about my F&N and sesat kan all of you about my coursework. Now I want to talk about my awesome-est weekend ever!

On Saturday, I had C.I.P with 4B, 4D including Eeqa! I was so elated because at last we managed to go out. Anyway, we headed to Orchard Road after our breakfast at Ya Kun Kaya toast. We managed to collect quite alot excluding Sutri, but nevermind Sut, it's their fault. The people whom you asked for donation are all stingy people. Hm, I am very curious. How can one afford a Louis Vuitton bag, yes the besar gedabak one especially or Burberry bags, but still find it so hard to donate 10 cents lor! Perangai dasar Singaporean all of them. Me don't like them. But still, some angmohs donated some notes. Yes, God bless the angmohs who donated us.

Today was also great. Hahaha because we went to Escape Theme Park w P.E.N.S for free! So it's like the whole week we've been facing each other's faces. Lol. Anyway, our intial plan was to go Wild Wild Wet, but I couldn't as my red friend is here, so is Naz's. Hahaha, serve her right for laughing at me yesterday. We got free tix as Sut's mom donated some money to some organisation and got it for free. The moral of the story is you must donate, later you can reap your rewards! It was actually a family day event for the Indians, which is the four of us bo chap went in! Somemore, my V.I.P or Victory Indian Power[EheemNazEheem] was here with us, so I together with my friends embraced ourselves to go inside. Hehehe.

Our moods dampened straight away because it was raining, and most rides were down due to whatever under construction or whatsoever. So we went Haunted House and pekik like mad women inside. We went round and round the theme park and found nothing amusing. Don't call it amusement park when it doesn't amuse people at all. In the first place, since when it is called Amusement Park ah?! Hahaha, anyhow only me.

Anyway, while Sut & Naz were queueing for the Wet & Wild section, Eeqa and me myself went to the Haunted House for the 2nd time. Yes, at first it was alright, until there was one part when this guy who acted like a ghost wearing Scream's mask and holding a fake baby trying to scare us,which did not make sense at all, since when Scream got child right?! We found it irritating plus merepek, so we both beat him up into a pulp! HAHAHA!! Serves him right lorrr kena beaten up by us, who ask you to become so irritating follow us and stared at me right into my face. But sorry to whoever actually dressed up like a ghost. Next time don't irritate people okay.

After we went for our Wet & Wild ride and got all soaked into our skin, we went to the Haunted House again. Like never learn our lesson like that. Haiyo. Things were not as scary but Naz argued with some indian boys who are like matreps. Hehehehe, funny funny. We wanted to try Go-Kart, but I was not in good mood cos my red friend is dissapointing me. Sobs. We went for the kental mini ferris wheel and ended our day. Okay lah, need to finish the story, cannot anyhow condemn that place, that is my bestfriend's workplace and also to jumpa Bapak. *WINKS*

I think I'm getting darker and fatter already, don't you think so? It's not that I'm not insecure or what, but it's the truth. Hahaha, Naz and my bro already started to call me Mak Itam, and Faiz already started to call me Gemok.Slap each and one of you's forehead!

Okay, tomorrow I have school and I am still wondering to play P.E or not. Harhar, no wonder I gained weight.

Bye bye and wish me luck for my shitty schooldays.

2009-04-04T21:36:00.000-07:00

P.E.N.S day out! I so can't wait! :D

2009-03-29T06:42:00.000-07:00

S.A.M & Starbucks with my favourite girls on Friday. ^^ Hm, to tell you the truth, I wanted to post a picture of myself posing like a S-Grid Girl with Jeep. Iya Jib, your friend. But the problem is I looked exactly like bapok siam. I'm already so sad. Hehe. Anyway, thanks to Khaty's bro for the ride home and the girls too for making my day! Love you two!

On Saturday, I watched Sri Warisan: Towkay Wayang the Musical with the cousins as my cousin was acting in it. I tried to hold my tears at some part cos I didn't want to cry infront of strangers. Too bad, there are no pictures, cos my cousin didn't bring her dslr. ):

2009-03-21T07:24:00.000-07:00

I'm going down, and I know you'll be the first one to laugh. As far as I'm concerned, I don't care two hoots about it, honey. I know you're going to fall too, so we're actually even. Only yours is a painful one. Ouch.

On a good note; I'm actually recovering from stupid runny nose. I could not stand being breathless in the middle of my sleep. Cb, such a spoiler. I had fun today, with S although E&N weren't there. Pool with S was definitely great. Our initial plan was to play bowling but it was cancelled as I actually mistook Sunday for today, so I accidentally went out with S and realised E& N couldn't make it. Apologies, loves. We'll make it next week maybe, or the following week.I'm waiting for the picas actually. Sut, faster ah i tell you.

2009-03-15T06:36:00.000-07:00

Hahahahalo! I hate Sundays, because I realised Sundays always make me feel gloomy. Anyway, I love last week! I missed 2 days of school and it was fucking last week of school! Yeah, there's nothing to be excited of, cos I still need to come back for some courses. Uh yeah, abit shitholes.

So anyways, I got my results! Yeah, I did hmm, a so-so I guess esp for Combined Humans. I'm an alien for hating Humanities. =.=

When is the P.E.N.S outing ni?! Wahliau, when you all can make yourself free? I'm not free on Thurs, Sut's not on Fri, Eeqa's not on Wed, Naz's unreachable, I suppose. So sad now.

Bye.

2009-03-11T23:48:00.001-07:00

I missed school for 2 days. Hahahaah, and I'm sorry P.E.N.S & Bff.

2009-03-08T04:03:00.000-07:00

I was busy bloghopping on someone's blog, whom actually copied me, or to put it in nice word, sounded almost the same as me. Hmmmmmmm..

on another note, I'm craving for strawberry milk tea so big possibility, I'm going to buy it on my own and be a loner again. :D

2009-03-07T03:45:00.000-08:00

I was supposed to go out with Fahima but it was cancelled cos she needs to go to Nenek's house. So yeah yeah, here I am rotting in my bro's room, staring at the screen for god-knows how long I've been facing it with a cup of hot milo to accompany me. I also managed to finish the whole book of Out Of My Depth by Emily Barr.I'm so happy that I stayed at home and enjoy some me-time alone as I've been working my ass out for Common Test and never had a complete rest. So yeah, cheers to that. Now I'm going to stuff my mouth with some comfort food 'cos I am feeling sad again.

And oh, not forgetting, Happy Bday To Chan Junsin.
Although you can be an annoying bugger sometimes, I'm still glad to have you as my friend for 4 years and having to put up with your annoying jokes. [:

2009-03-05T05:34:00.000-08:00

I miss the company of P.E.N.S. It has been such a long time since we last went back home together, sitting at the bustop,talking craps while munching on Old Chang Kee.

I miss Khaty too! Hohoho, I never forget you ok!

Lastly, I miss Mira. Yes, mira. Aku miss kau. When are we going to do our mimic-ing again?! Better come my house, a.s.a.p. But the stupid band [no offence harr] took away most of your life, just like Study Prog took away mine too.

2009-03-04T06:42:00.000-08:00

I've been stalked by my mother's friend's weird daughter. She's just..weird?

Anyway, I'm fine, my bebo aka scandal forever is fine as well. We're all fine people. I'm sorry again bebo for not being able to visit you. I just hate having the runs early in the morning. ):

2009-03-02T05:48:00.000-08:00

I was happily walking to Nazimah while she was sitting. When I saw her tearing up badly, I knew something must be wrong. She calmly made me sit, and told me that you met an accident. And I broke down so hard. Cos I have never expected someone like you, would end up in that state.

I started to panic, how did you meet an accident? Who was that freaking driver who knocked you down? I then asked God, why must it be someone like you, when there are actually other people who deserve to be knocked down by a car. I could not stop worrying about you and at the same time , I was speechless.

I landed on Sokkan's shoulders, Nazimah's and Cikgu Huda's. No matter how much they comforted me, these tears just couldn't stop rolling because I was goddamn worried about you. So did the others. They cried for you, we cried for you, because you meant alot to us and in our life.

Now that you're fine, I still have this tiny winy bit of worry for you. How are you going to walk to school with these crutches, how are you going to sleep with those injuries? But I still hope, you get well soon so that you can do your normal routines.

I love you, Bebo and please get well soon. (=

2009-02-28T07:21:00.000-08:00

I miss the times when we would make fool of ourselves, laughing away like nobody's business, doing the silly poses when taking picture in class. I miss the times where we'd sit together to do our usual things, gossip and talk about boys. I miss the times when we sneaked food inside our bag and ate it during lesson. I miss the times when we shared our biggest secrets about our crush. I miss the times when we poured out our feelings and cry on one's shoulders. But it all happened too fast.

Now, we've parted our ways. We're like no longer sworn sisters. Each of us has our own friends. And the worst thing ever- we can never click after that.

As I started to browse our photos taken together, these flashbacks ran into my mind and I smiled because of the fun we had. But this smile faded away, and it was all left with tears rolling down the cheeks and a sudden total breakdown.

I then questioned myself, was it my fault, your fault or maybe Fate's fault? I then argued with myself, that this was actually my fault. My fault, for not spending time with you. For rejecting you every time you asked me out. For doing many wrongs to you. For not confronting you and sort things out nicely so that we wouldn't have ended up like this- Being strangers.

Karma has finally come in my life. The loved ones left me one by one. And when at times I need you the most, I know I can't, because we're no longer close.

I miss you and I hope you know who am I referring to..

and i hope any readers out there, it could be my friends or any anonymous bloghoppers, learn a valuable lesson from this post.
-Treasure your friends and accept them for who they are.

2009-02-26T03:17:00.000-08:00

I hate favouritism. The big bro, or should i say, baby bro always get whatever he wants. Anything- just name it. My parents will get it for him.

But me, each time I ask for something, their answers would be "see your results first", and it's always like that. Wah ninabey, it's not that I asked something very expensive or what lor. I did well for last year results, and that is still not enough?!

Yeah lah yeah lah, burn your money on him lah. I am not your favourite one what. I am just an ugly duckling who just ask for 4 bucks per day, while their favourite son can actually spend more than 100 bucks per week.

I hope my cousins come across my blog, and tell this to their parents lor. Then their parents report to my parents lor. So good lor.

On a good note, Pahan cheered me up! My bestfriend made a very good choice. Got bf who can listen to the girlfriend's bestfriend's problem. So Pahan, since you so nice to me hor, I no need to watch you ald lor. But still, if you break her heart, i break your bone ah, I tell you ah.

PHATT says:
hahaha
suvian lee fav teacher aku.

€·pahan· ™ says:
eeeeeee

PHATT says:
hahahahah
hahahahahahaa

€·pahan· ™ says:
kau must be tebiat

oh, see lah i forgot also. Some Indon students will be coming to my school tomorrow. Ya siih, Indon ya mbak mbak dan mas mas. I hope they are not like the students I see in Indon Drama. The one with short skirts or whatever whatever. What sia Phat, stereotyping. But really lor, not my fault what. The drama influenced my mind lor. But I hope to see mas mas ganteng ya di sana, cos some indon boys are hot hot heat like Rezky Aditya & Bayu Kusumanegara. I find Bayu's name so patriotic lor. Hahah, sorry Bayu. If you want to mention any other hot Indon guys from any dramas or television you want to introduce, don't bother lah. Cos I only watch Suci drama ok.

Okay lah, I very tired. Bye and have a nice weekend.

2009-02-23T08:05:00.000-08:00

I'm still in hiatus.

I'm pretty much sure that I'll flunk this CT1 esp, SS. Cb, ss.

I'm sorry Mr Zee/BFF No.5[hahahaha], if i dissapoint you, well let's just give the Swensen's treat a pass. ):

2009-02-22T04:46:00.000-08:00

On hiatus, might be back or might not be back anymore.

2009-02-17T00:33:00.000-08:00

I'm still deciding..

leave it just like this,
or either delete this shit.

2009-02-09T05:52:00.000-08:00

Eeqa, when's our next date to PRP again? ):

Thank you momma for the pratas, thank you Bro for the pink mp3 which you found it so attention seeking, and you thought it would be better if you choose it for me which I obviously insisted on getting the pink one and also thank you again making me fat by calling up the Mac's at 1am in the morning.

Things start to pick up slowly, and I'm trying to go with the f-l-o-w~. Oh before I forgot, thank you P.E.N.S and also Nisah,Mr Zee[HAHA], khaty and whoever who were there for me, listening to my whines & complain, lending me a shoulder to cry on. I realised I still have many friends who are there for me, and not forgetting how many plastic friends I have in my life. Hahah, I'm still the old sarcastic meanie.

Now that CT1 is nearing, I have to put a lot of effort, esp for my maths. But the sight of seeing my maths teacher, not to mention who[ sekali kena sue,you want to pay for me isit?!], whom I have always called him "Santa Claus''[ cos he has one long white beard ], always iritate me. I don't/ never understand his way of teaching, explaination and everything. I'm glad that me and some of my classmates have already complained it to our form teacher, who was our former maths teacher, and he'll be writing to the HOD of Maths who is/was at India. If it still doesn't work, hm, maybe getting a petition [kurang ajar eh petition] will do. Nah, let's see how it goes.

Haix, why lah my life so dramatic?.. Someone asked me that. I cannot help it lor, things want to happen already. I'm not like Alice Cullen right, can see future and all these stuffs. If I were her already, I'd probably run away from all these problems, go back to Forks to meet my future family right. So yeah, I cannot help it, but what I can do is, to go with the f-l-o-w~ and take a chill pill.

2009-02-08T04:01:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. Things haven't been going smoothly and I'm still in the foulest mood ever since last week. And many things happened and many many more. School has been a sucky one and always pressurizing me, so no use about me blogging about things that put me to pressure. Life has not been good, or easily said, not a peaceful one. Been dealing with the words " critically ill, coma, kidney failure,late-grandmum", so yeahh, you guys probably know why am I in this state.

I miss nenek, I wish she was here by my side. The last time I saw her was 6 years ago. 6 years was short. 6 years before the soil covered her. When she was here, our families stayed together, now that she's up there, we went our own ways.

I don't want any crying sessions anymore cos I am sick of puffy red tired eyes.

and I know I'm crapping so yeah thank you for wasting your 5 minutes on this crappy blog.

2009-02-03T04:29:00.000-08:00

I hate everybody in my life right now. And i hate you, them and me myself too.

CONCLUSION: I'm in the foulest mood.

2009-02-01T08:30:00.000-08:00

Sunday was totally bored to the max. I actually had to force myself to my cousin/second cousin's wedding. Wtf. Well on the brighter side, I met my scandal/bebo for life, after I studied at Starbucks alone. Cb, I'm always a loner. Luckily my bebo was there after I studied, and headed to the bubble tea shop to have my superdog with extra mayo and mustard. Yummyyyy. Stopped by her house, waited for her to get ready to meet her Mr Loveeee and I went back. Boring righhhhtt? Haix, nevermind atleast the bebo made my day especially with our non stop gossips. What, don't like ah? That one your problem ok.

While waiting for her to finish her dolling up [ehemnakjumpaboyfehem]..

I actually had the time to camwhore using her handphone..

because I love her handphone and its owner. <3

2009-01-31T06:59:00.000-08:00

The JB plan was cancelled, instead the family headed to the hospital to visit one of our relatives. And and and, Muhd Syakir & Nur Syahirah & Insyirah followed us too!! Well, okay that's not my point.

My pointttttttt isssss tomorrow will Ng Sokkan's bdayyyy!

Ng sok sok sok sok sok kan.

thou we've drifted apart, there is one connection that still couldn't let go- our jokes.

no matter how many jokes/sarcasms hurt us in any way, we still let it go.

we knew each other since 13 and since then i never regret knowing you.

cos you taught me something valuable- friendship.

whatever it is, wherever we are, you're still in my heart.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, NG SOKKAN.

and cb, dont brag to me you can watch NC 16 movies ald hor.

slap you 20 times. hahahahaha.

whatever it is, i love you to the maximum.

lovesss!

2009-01-28T05:19:00.000-08:00

School was alright, the starting of school on wednesday. Bleargh. I didn't expect much though, just normal routines and study programme. Well, while I was checking out the new study programme schedule, my heart just cracked.

HOW COME ON FRIDAY, MY STUDY PROGRAMME ENDS AT 5.20 PM, ONE?!!?!! The first session of it will be my F&N coursework, then second session will be English lesson and the last session will be back to my f&n coursework again! That explains I have 10 freaking periods of F&N lesson on Friday! Wah jialat! Well, I'm not surprised if one day I were to spend more time in school than home.

The Queen of Mother was at first irritated by the stupid schedule because of the pressure put on her daughter, but in the end she said "this is for your own good". Yeah yeah it's for my own good, but you see my tight schedule nowadays. I also have tuition on Saturday and Sunday for 2 freaking hours each, and my Queen of Mother also planned to sign me up for a religious class on every sunday because my mom and aunt thought my religious knowledge is down the drain already.

HAIXZXZXZXZ.

SOMEBODY HELP ME PLEASE.

Yeah yeah I better stop whining and complaining,later people think I like to complain lah,whine lah, weak lah and blablablabla.

THIS IS ALL FOR YOUR OWN GOOD.
-quoted by the Queen of Mother.

2009-01-25T22:06:00.001-08:00

I saw somebody who looks like someone, and then my heart started to beat rapidly..

2009-01-25T07:56:00.000-08:00

Naa-uh, I'm not dead, yet. Thank you very much.

and someone just partly spoilt my morning sleep cos that idiot called me at 3 freaking am in the morning while i was sleeping like a sleeping beauty.

2009-01-20T04:40:00.000-08:00

It's funny how I always end up to be in faulty friendships, and it always make me feel guilty.Is it me, or isit just that we can't click? And somebody just ticked me off for once, just for once, and that's for my own good and obviously he's fucking right.

I should think of myself for once, be selfish for once, and stop putting others before myself and stop being lenient cos some of them might end up repaying you back with S.H.I.T.

Let me tell you this, for once or for many many times, I can never let my head be stepped on and I can never make myself feel guilty for something I don't do wrong. For once, this shit has got to be over.

Let me stress this out to you, I don't live my life to satisfy others, not in the sexual way[ duh], but I don't live my life feeling guilty and pressured just to make you feel happy.It's not gonna hurt me anymore when people turn their backs on me. This is the end.

Anyway, I won't update that much, because i'm schooling anyway. And school is not a pleasant thing this year, so why update?

2009-01-15T04:17:00.000-08:00

Check out my current obsession- Rezky Aditya. ^^
You guys would probably know him from Suci drama at Sensasi.
He's fucking attractive like a magnet right.

pssst; he has sexy lips too.

2009-01-14T05:35:00.000-08:00

I want to get rid of my pontianak hair as soon as possible.

2009-01-12T04:49:00.000-08:00

Spell B-E-T-R-A-Y-E-D with me.. )=

2009-01-10T09:10:00.000-08:00

Saturday was a bloody bore, let's wish for a better sunday. Well of course it will be a better one, cos I'm smelling M-O-N-E-Y. Kerchang kerchangs! I love you bursary.

So I decided to list out things when I receive the cheque, which is none of your business. How can I be so mean? Hehe, well it's pretty much common, I just expect for few more tops and a jeans[!], a bag, sandals, and a new hairdo.

The brother's off to Jb with his soccer friends, urgh he and his forever soccer. I'm so lonely and there's nobody to crap with. Surprisingly I miss my brotha, hahaha I hope he won't read this when he gets back. Cb so embarassed. HAHAHA. Me and my brotha, we don't say I love you sis/bro. We're not like that, or maybe I'm the one who isn't much affectionate. Don't bother asking about my bro cos we're totally different.

Okay I'm crapping. Anyway, I spent the night touring my neigbourhood besides my neighbourhood. You get what I mean? Haha, saw some familiar faces and spent the night bitching bout a slut who is completely insecure about herself and her boyfriend who bloody annoyed the hell out of Nisah. Low-life bitch, what do ya expect? =.=

Enough creating sins, I'm going off to sleep or else I'm going to miss my money tomorrow. Hahaha, moneyface.

2009-01-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

Oh thank goodness I'm back. I thought that I was going to rot to death.

and school's been hectic with splitting groups, urgh goddamn it's so tiring. Not mentioning, I have my tuition on every sunday, and I've been considering the job to tutor my mom's bestfriend's son. I don't mind tutoring kids as long as they're not fucked up kids and I can make money for myself too. But the thing is will I be able to make time for myself? I guess I can give that a pass. Urgh, there goes my money. A lot of things to be considered, alot of things to decide and this is merely the first week of New Year. I guess my break is definitely over. =[

2009-01-04T08:23:00.000-08:00

Naw, I'm not back yet. But i'll be updating sooon. I guess so.

and oh, I'm changing my email add. I just can't stand my mom's friend's DAUGHTER invading my privacy,sending emails and bragging about her computer skills. GRRR.

tunggu ehhhh! (:

2008-12-31T05:43:00.000-08:00

2008 has been a great year with joy, tears, friends& ex-flames. I had a kickass 08 year, and that's for sure my last year of enjoyment before my N's.

Thank God[ although i haven't been a good muslim, or never] for my family and friends for showing me that I'm not a loser, cos I don't lose them. Thank God for showing me the joy and pain of being loved. Thank God for everything.

and to everybody, have a nice 2009 ahead and start afresh!

2008-12-28T01:02:00.000-08:00

Hello, Eeqa here. Phat will not be updating till her computer gets back to normal. She will be back soon! Thank you.

2008-12-26T10:47:00.000-08:00

Hello people weeple. It's been a hectic week and my computer is back to normal, buttttt, just for awhile. Sighs, oh well.

but still i have something to post, about my bestfriend.

For someone who has been with me thru thick and thin,

for someone whom i would always call before setting off to school

for someone who never fails to matchmake me with whoever guys we met

for someone who always put a smile on my face even with her lamest jokes

and that's for someone whom I always stick with throughout these 11 years

way before our puberty reached, way before we talked about boys,

and that's none other than my Sutri Nurmaziyah,

HAPPY 15TH BDAY MY DEAREST SUTRI. <3

P.s; see lah my face tak glam also I post, cos got you. ;D

2008-12-23T07:25:00.000-08:00

Cb, i short or what.

It was hell loads of fun with laughters everywhere. I can see myself smiling away while reminiscening the good moments we had. And of course still, I was sort of moody on that day, oh I'm sorry about that.

our family portrait is back. [:

2008-12-22T06:42:00.001-08:00

another hole, another hole in my heart.

and thank you people for today, love ya'll, and I'm sorry for my bad mood.